Better but not best

I am better but not my best.

Recital 2008 is over!! Yes, it was awesome, worth it and now we are done....till next year. I am sooo proud of my kids, they did such a beautiful job. I am so grateful I was well enough to participate fully like I usually do. Maybe a pic or two at a later date.

I still have several days to go on the antibiotic and I cannot wait to be done with it. It obviously works but it makes my stomach hurt, not like nausea, but physical pain. In addition to that my fallopian tube pain is back. It is so random, I never know when it will surface, it used to be so predictable. This is main reason for going ahead with my surgery, I have to be able to function and the pain makes it hard. Can I just take a moment and say that getting sick this close to my surgery has been a major inconvenience? It has been and will be. I have so much work to catch up on at the office, stuff at home that I need to get done. My impending surgery will just put me out of commission for another week and I hate it at this point. It's not fair to my family, job, etc. This surgery better work so I can recover and get back to being the Mom/Wife/Employee I need to be.

Did I mention I feel a fever blister coming on?

How much for a trade in?

I am officially falling apart so I was thinking of trading myself in for a newer model. The final straw...a huge, disgusting fever blister on my upper lip. I was fortunate to make it through the first 38 years of my life without ever experiencing a fever blister. When I had that cornual pregnancy 2 years ago is when I was cursed with my first fever blister. It was horrible, I had no idea how painful they could be and how badly they could make one feel. Fast forward to the present and day before yesterday I awoke to the familiar tingle on my lip. It didn't take long for it to develop into a full blown festering fever blister. Fortunately for me my Ob/Gyn called me in a refill for Famvir and it shouldn't take long to kick in. For the moment I look like a prize fighter that lost the prize.

I spoke to the RE's office today. I am to continue the b/c pills, taking the last active pill on April 1st. My pre-op appt. is scheduled for April 7th and surgery is still on for April 10th. I am so ready for this surgery. I feel in my gut and my heart that there is something going on with my right fallopian tube. Whether it is endo, scar tissue or left over fetal tissue from 2 years ago (not ruling that out) I just feel like I know my body and I know the pain is the same as the cornual pregnancy and its not going away. I am ready to be fixed so we can move forward with trying for a baby.